Stupid relationship problems.

So me and Kyle will be reaching the one year mark at the end of this month and this morning, we broke up(for about a minute.)

To explain what happened this morning I would have to write millions of pages detailing everything that has happened in the last six months, but I'm sure neither of us have that kind of time. Instead, let me sum things up for you; around the end of march me and Kyle were having serious issues. I felt as though he never wanted to hang out with me and began to hang out with my friend from work, Michelle(yes, the one I now live with.) Along with Michelle came a great group of friends that I quickly became close with. As things often work out, as soon as I found something else to do with my time, Kyle wanted to hang out. Our fighting quickly switched from him not having enough time to me not having enough time.

At about the same time I met a kid name Ty(not the one I live with) and kind-of, sort-of started to have feelings for him. While me and Ty were getting to know eachother his best-friend Nik was falling for Michelle. Things progressed and I had made up my mind; I was going to break up with Kyle for Ty. For the next twenty-four hours I cried non-stop and refused to get out of bed. Ty came over to make sure I was okay and the very sight of him repulsed me. I knew what I had to do. Kyle called me because I had broken things off very suddenly and wanted to meet up to talk. We drove around in his car for about an hour(so awkward!) and talked things out. We decided to stay together. I told Ty that I had decided I wanted to be with Kyle and that was all there was to it. Everything should have ended happily ever, however; Ty is the most stubborn person I know.

I didn't want to let this get in between the great friendship me and Ty had established (impossible!?) so I chose to ignore what had happened. Me and Ty were going to be friends and JUST friends. It was some time in April when me and Kyle broke up for those twenty-four hours and for the last six months it has been a constant battle with myself. I have asked Ty to give up on me time and time again but he refuses. I thought that for some reason all of this was going to end when he moved to Richland center for college but things only got worse. He calls me every day, often twice a day, to see how I'm doing and what I'm up to. I don't mind any of this because hes a very important person in my life and I enjoy talking to him. He still asks me to be with him every day and I tell him that I'm with Kyle and then he gets mad at me and declares that hes never speaking to me again. Ten minutes later he calls me back and tells me that he didn't mean that. All of this has definitely added to my level of stress lately but I have tried to just push it away and ignore it.

On the day of the Oktoberfest parade Nik took a picture of me and Ty with my arm around him. Cute picture. Just a picture. POSING FOR A PICTURE. Nik posted it on facebook with a caption that read " the way it oughta be." When I saw the picture last night it made me angry that Nik would post it but I closed the window and forgot about it and went to sleep. Before class this morning I was on the computer talking to someone and Kyle signed on. He said hey to me and then requested a direct connection. I thought this was wierd but accepted and waited to see what he was sending me. All of a sudden the picture of me and Ty popped up and Kyle asked me what was going on. I can't write most of what he said to me on here as it is not "classroom appropriate," but you can imagine. I still had fourty-five minutes before I had to be in class so I rushed over to Kyle's. We fought a lot and he asked me what he's supposed to make of all of this. I understand where he's coming from but wish things didn't have to be like this. Kyle told me that he can't take how much I talk to him knowing the kinds of things that he says to me. Kyle ended it for a minute but then took it back.

Although I know things are going to be weird for a while I'm kind of glad that this happened. Situations like this force me to open my eyes and think about what is really important to me. If Nik and Ty were as good of friends to me as I thought they were they wouldn't be doing things to end a relationship I'm in that makes me happy. I don't want to lose Kyle and I will not let something like this happen again.

Sorry to bore you with my relationship issues but I had to write about something and it's the only thing on my mind right now. On the bright side the entire thing was NOT deleted when the window randomly closed. I probably would have given up on life at that point!